I’m walkin’ on sunshine

It seems as though things in my life aren’t allowing me to blog as much as I’d like to to be able to keep up with this challenge, but I am going to complete it, even if that means playing catch up here and there. I will finish!

Day 15 was to be a day in the life of… me. Well, (un)interestingly enough, my day changes… daily. I don’t have a normal routine with the schedule that I work, unfortunately. Keeps things interesting really. I think I can sum it up though so that it covers each kind of day well enough.

I wake up (AM or PM depending on what I worked/am working that day).
I take the furkids out if the hubsters hasn’t already.
I have coffee (lots or a little also depending).
I either watch TV or read on my kindle for a while.
I catch with “my public” as Tommy calls it, and I continue to do this all throughout the day as I’m a very social person.
I eat somewhere along the way.
I try to blog but it doesn’t always work out that way.
I also try to game a bit with someone, Tommy or the BFF(effinship).

These are all things that are semi-constant in my daily life, whether I have the day off or not. There is a bit of give and take in there somewhere, but that’s the case for everyone right?

Day 16 was to be something difficult about my ‘lot in life’ and how I’m working to overcome it. This one is easy and slaps me in the face every time something along the lines of this topic comes around. My something difficult is most definitely my self image and self esteem. I have THE worst image of myself in my head. Part of it, I finally realized, is because I don’t exactly have someone to compare myself to. Not in the bad way but as in there aren’t many women my height or build. I have no way of looking at another girl and comparing any features really because we are so different. I am so different. This is something that I have always, always struggled with and I think will continue to for the rest of my life. So how am I working to overcome it? I stop asking Tommy if I look like ‘that girl’ or ‘that girl over there’. I stop myself before I even get the question out. It doesn’t matter. I allow myself to like some of the features that I have on my body. My eyes, my hair, my awkward smile, my legs for miles… haha. I have good things about me and not just ‘pretty on the inside’ things. I know I’m a good person, I have a big and kind heart, but I want to feel like I have confidence in myself and the way I appear. That affects the way I carry myself and deal with others at work and just in general on a daily basis. To me, that’s important. It doesn’t have to be a magazine cover or a model kind of pretty. Pretty comes in all shapes and sizes and colors and is much more than looks. It’s the confidence and the attitude behind the looks. Take care of yourself and feel good about yourself and the pretty will shine through. (Is that something only ugly girls say?)

Day 17 was to be a favorite photo of myself and why.

i’m walkin’ on sunshine?

This photo represents so much to me. It was taken in a happy and sad time. This was when we lived in another city that I love and miss very much. It was also pretty much right before our lives would change forever. He deployed a few months after this picture was taken. Life was much more carefree and easy then, I think. Not that I am not happy with where we are now, but that of course there have been struggles. I just think that this picture of me represents who I still want to be inside. Plus, look at that straight SHORT hair! Not sure if I miss that though.

Aaaand I’m finally at today’s challenge. A story from my childhood, as descriptive as possible. Oh the things I could dig up but intentionally keep locked away. Let’s just overlook those for a moment and get toooo… oh! The story about how my best friend of our lifetime sat on me outside her front yard and wouldn’t let me go home, even though I really wanted to, because she wasn’t done playing. We were about, oh I don’t know, 7 and 5 at the time? I was much more of a chunk than she was, and I was taller than her. This little bean pole of a girl basically sitting on my back and holding me down because she didn’t want me to go home. Parents and grandparents both came running out to see what all the commotion was about, but instead of helping me what do you think they did? Took pictures. OF COURSE they took pictures. There is proof that this happened and to this day it is still one of our parents’ favorite stories to tell anyone and everyone they can.

I am so excited to finally be caught up! I know I’ll be able to do tomorrow’s challenge which is 5 of my favorite blogs and what I love about them. This one will be fun to do for sure! I only have two hours left of work before I get to rush home and change and head out of town for some family things that I’m very excited and nervous about! So I will wish you all a very good Saturday morning as I go begin my closing duties!

XoxoX
Jess