Sorry. I am so, so sorry.

 

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Today I am to issue a public apology. This is something I think I’ve been needing to get off my chest for quite some time and today gives me enough reason to go on and get it over with.

I have a slight anger problem. Just a bit of a temper that kinda comes out around stupid people. Where do we all know stupid people tend to be on a regular basis?? The road. Road rage can consume me like no other when I am surrounded by idiots driving. For that, I am sorry… I am so, so sorry.

I think I should start my own Driving School. I think that would eliminate so much of the problem for me. And for those of you that are thinking that I text and drive too much, I have taken care of that problem too so don’t even start.

Enjoy your little Tennant eye-candy today, I know I will!

XoxoX
Jess

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Monday, let’s keep it lighthearted

The challenge for yesterday for Blog Every Day in May was ‘what do you miss?’ I missed it because I worked from midnight Saturday night till 8:30 Sunday morning then picked up my brother and we did Mothers Day things all day yesterday. It was a really good day for us all I think! Cooking out by the river with the family and the furkids. Good day all around! But on to playing catch-up again.


I could really make this post deep and talk about people, loved ones, or lost pets I’ll always miss. I do miss those and they are totally worthy to be in this post, however, I kinda just want to talk about the carefree years for a minute. Can we do that? Just travel back to the teenage and young adult years with me for a moment.

What the crap were we thinking?! I had a solid job and didn’t save a dime. I didn’t have any responsibilities other than school, work, and whatever sports I was playing at the time and I couldn’t even manage to manage my money any better than I did? Shame, for shame! (as my lovely niece diva would say).

So what do I really miss besides the possible money saved during that time? I miss the fact that I was always surrounded by friends, I miss the fact that we didn’t have hardly any responsibilities because being an adult with all the worry of bills and stress of life can really tire a girl out. I miss being able to be as spontaneous without feeling guilty.

If I could go back and slap myself, I would. I was a carefree idiot! But I had fun. Those memories and trials that I thought would really be the end of my little world are things I wouldn’t trade for the world.

And I leave you with the always entertaining Jenna Marbles video about hating being a grown up. Seems appropriate for a post like this. Enjoy!

XoxoX
Jess

Blog a Day in May catch-up!

It’s late at night or early in the morning depending on if you are asleep and have to be up soon or if you are a vampire like I tend to be with the hours that I work. Since it does get so quiet during these hours, I’m deciding to be productive and get some blogging done! Since I already have the 10th prompt ready to go, I thought I’d sit here and do some of the other prompts that I missed out on!

Day 1 – The story of my life in 250 words.
I was born in Mississippi, raised in Louisiana. I grew up with mostly guy friends and a very few girl friends and I still believe that this is completely okay. I was a Mama’s girl and very attached to her hip, when I was home. I always wanted to be on the go, go somewhere, do something, get out of that place. Once I did, I don’t think I would have ever fathomed that my longing for that small village would have been this deep. I was an athlete in high school, didn’t play in college, but became very devoted to Christ and his teachings. Life happened and I’m still struggling to find my way back. I got married at 21 to the love of my life and partner in crime and moved from Mama’s to living with him without ever being on my own, till his deployment. College brought on some very fun times, good friends and sign language, which I’m very passionate about, but college was put on hold while he was gone. I do hope to finish my second degree one of these days. Today I’m a wife, a daughter, sister, aunt to the best niece diva in the world, mom to 3 of the cutest furkids ever, hotel front desk clerk and a tv/gamer junkie. I have hopes and dreams, school being one of them, maybe a family – that’s still up in the air – who knows? But THAT is the story of my life in probably more than 250 words.

Day 2 – Educate the public on something I’m good at. Hmm okay well this was the first thing that popped in my head and I’d love to share, even if I’m not all that good at it. I have always been passionate about Sign Language and I got the chance to really explore that during several of my college years at the University of Southern Mississippi. That place is where I made some of the best friends of my life. I will never forget the memories and relationships made there. Anyway, I think that American Sign Language is a beautiful language for several reasons really. I appreciate and support the Deaf community and what it stands for, I have seen those struggle to learn and overcome it and apply it to music in a beautiful and entertaining way, and it is just visually appealing. Even if you don’t know sign language, more than likely you can use “context clues” to figure out what some of the signs being used are. With that, I’d like to share a link that I still use today to keep up with my ability to read fingerspelling (the act of ‘spelling’ out words using the American Sign Language alphabet). This site is a great tool used by some of the greatest that I know.

Oooh Day 3 – Things that make me uncomfortable… lots of things so this should be quick and easy.
– Doctors offices/hospitals
– Needles
– Clowns
– Dolls and especially the older looking ceramic? ones.
– Frogs when they are facing me
– Things that aren’t lined up right or when one thing is turned the wrong way or slightly askew
– Pizza that is cut in a weird way
– When someone is in my personal bubble
– Jumpy, in your face moments.
– Sitting next to someone at a red light who has their music up wayy too loud.
– My height
– How out of shape I am
– Closed boxes. (K3)

Day 4 – Favorite quote and why I love it.

Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light. – Albus Dumbledore.

That one should be fairly obvious. I mean, come on, I did a post solely about how Harry Potter changed my life.

And then there are the quotes from Marilyn Monroe and Audrey Hepburn that I just simply adore for all the girl power and strength.

Women who seek to be equal with men lack ambition. – Marilyn Monroe

To all the girls that think you’re fat because you’re not a size zero, you’re the beautiful one, its society who’s ugly. – Marilyn Monroe

I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles. – Audrey Hepburn

Day 5 – Profess my love for a blogger or RL friend/family member. Think I’ll skip this one and just refer you to this post for now. Although since we have been matched for our Cara Box swaps these two ladies, BAM and BAM have been incredible in getting to know and I look forward to how this month’s swap is going to pan out! If you have moment, go check them out, they are pretty awesome gals!

Day 6 – If I can’t answer with ‘my job’, how would I answer the question ‘what do I do?’
Veryyy cool. Well, I am a full time wife and Aunt, I love to go to the park with my furkids, go to the gym when my schedule allows it, play video games (yes I’m a gamer geek), and spend time with family.

Day 7 – Things I’m most afraid of.
Look up to the uncomfortable post, the top 4 things on that list are my top fears.

Day 8 – Piece of advice I have for y’all.
Keep your head up. Man, I can’t stress this enough. You will not be defeated, even if it feels like it. It can rain, and rain, and rain, pour even, but it stops eventually.

Day 9 – A moment in my day

Werk.

Aaaand I do believe that brings me current! I’m so excited… but that could just be the insane amounts of coffee I’ve had this morning to make it through the last hour and a half.

XoxoX
Jess

Is opening up a good thing, really?

I recently took the plunge and made a Facebook page for my blog. Here it is, please like and support if you want to! Also, if you want to share your pages or anything with me, I’d be more than happy to follow/like back! You can check my page out here .

This is a huge step for me, and hopefully it’s one that’s in the right direction. Actually, anything that even slightly resembles the right direction would be fine with me. As long as it’s not backwards. Backwards is bad and it’s definitely what we do not want. We want progress.

Something I have noticed while doing all this though, is that I am very slow and selective to who I open up to. It has been much easier for me to share this part of my life with people that I met online rather than those that I know personally. I am trying to be a big girl and open more to people that I see occasionally in my actual life rather than keep it secluded to the select few that I choose to share with.

This.
is.
TERRIFYING.
What if I say something in a blog post that offends someone? What if I said something in a blog post that I’ve already forgotten about and someone goes back to read it and then brings up a past rant I had and they are unhappy that I shared it, especially if they were involved. What if? What if? What if?

I’m done playing that game. This is me, these are my thoughts and if you read this then you can share in it with me and take part in the roller coaster that is my life, or not. I am so very excited about this journey I’ve started and I would love it if people I know personally would like it and keep up if they choose to do so. I’ve never been one of the popular ones though, so I imagine most won’t be all that interested and that’s completely fine. But I think that those who are my friends, who are my real friends would want to support me as I take this step to more or less putting my life, my thoughts, hopes and dreams, frustrations and irritations, rants and rambles all out there for everyone to see. Not only that, but I’m putting my writing out there. As I try to better myself and focus on the positive, I think having this would and could only help me with that. I’m stepping out, taking a chance and allowing myself to be vulnerable to people in my life for the first time.

Yep. I was right.
It’s terrifying.
But also exhilarating.

I only made the page yesterday and I already have several likes, friends showing support, some who already knew about this blog and some who didn’t. I’d say that is off to a pretty good start.

How do you do it though? All you other bloggers, I’m talking to you. How do you feel about putting yourself out there and do you keep it more limited to who knows about your blog or do you just lay it out for everyone and their Mama to see, this is me. Was it as difficult for you as it was and is for me? Mixed emotions and all?

Would love some feedback!

XoxoX
Jess

What I’ve learned about the blog world

Man, OH man, there are a lot… I mean A LOT of blogs out there. It’s fantastic! I found this very neat blog that I just adore right now. Through that blog I found probably fifteen more that I wanted to keep up with and were inspired by. I have been digging around in other blogs out there and updating my own blog in here since I posted my initial one yesterday. It has been one fun and interesting journey! The possibilities of what to blog about are endless; and all the fun writing challenges? I just can’t wait. I am trying to get myself at least a little bit organized on my end so it’s not total chaos up in here. But, then again, a little chaos can be fun right? I’m even making notes in my planner and may even spring for a little purse notepad strictly for photography and blogging ideas since you know, I have so many of them!

I know I have one and I shall find it

So, what exactly have I learned? I think I’ve learned that how successful blogger of a blogger you are does not necessarily equal how many followers you have. Sure, followers and readers are a great thing, but some of the blogs I stumbled upon that I found to be some of my favorites so far were the ones with fewer followers. I’ve also learned that just because you don’t have many followers doesn’t mean you don’t have many readers. But to help with the readers and get my little corner of the blogging universe out there, I joined something that I found called BlogLovin’. This is something that I never would have even heard of unless I did a little browsing, and I’m glad I did! It’s a pretty cool little site to help keep all the blogs you follow together easily. It’s even got an app, which I of course downloaded immediately because I do love my apps. I also added the Google Chrome extension so I can see how many updates I have to read. Pretty stoked about it. I really think it’s going to help keep me focused on this and those blogs that I’ve already started to follow will help me keep a positive spin on things while continuing to give me new ideas for my own blog.

Another totally awesome thing that I found was the Cara Box! Okay, so I didn’t have to dig too hard for this one because , well,  it’s just that neat! I signed up for it and hope to have a successful swap with someone next month. Okay, so what is it? It’s this care package sort of idea but for bloggers across the blog universe. Each month you get a persons name to get to know, follow/stalk their blog, email back and forth and just try to get to know them before building them a package to send to them and make their life a little happier! Who wouldn’t just absolutely adore this?! First, you get to meet someone new that you probably never would have if it wasn’t for this. Second, you get a fun package in the mail! Do I even need a third? Of course I do because it’s me and three is my favorite number. Third, it connects bloggers in a way that they have possibly never been connected. Sure, we follow each other, read each others posts sometimes, but this is getting to really know someone and possibly building a friendship over something totally cool! Yay!

I really am excited about this new chapter in my life because I feel like I’m finally taking back control of it and this is a fantastic tool to help me do so.

XoxoX
Jess