When I make big money…

How I’ve been feeling lately

I’m not going to go into all the reasons why I haven’t been able to post here for a while. I am gonna say, though, that I’ve missed it so freakin’ much.

Now that that’s out of the way…

Money.

Everyone has issues with it, right? Somehow that never helps when you feel you are drowning in debt. Just when you think you have things figured out a little bit, it hits you all over again. Tidal waves crashing down on you and washing you out to the debt sea. It’s not anything to mess with.

I like to say that I’m fairly decent at budgeting and keeping up with our bills. While he was deployed I even focused all of my energy on a plan that I came up with to get us totally out of debt, minus student loans. Well, the student loans on his part have been taken care of. Which is a great thing. Mine finally caught up with me. They are being handled as they should be, but I feel like I can’t stop obsessing over income and bills and what we spend our money on. I go through it on paper, with a calculator, in my head, scratch paper… everywhere I can think of because I can’t stop thinking about it. Budget, budget, budget!

I need to take some sort of financial planning class and I know there are some out there. I honestly don’t know why this is weighing so heavy on me this time. It was almost nothing to take care of his, a breeze even. But right now, it’s about all I can take.

Oh the dreams I have for our future for when I make the big money. Debt paid off is priority obviously. But that’s not a fun dream. A fun dream would be road trips galore, shopping till I literally am bursting at the closet(s), fix up my truck like I want it, get him a new vehicle, get us a boat… oh the fun times we will have.

A girl can dream, can’t she?

Until that day comes though, back to working these numbers I go.

Hope everyone has a great weekend and I’m hoping to have my blogging voice back at least a little bit after this. We shall see.

XoxoX
Jess

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