Friends

I’ve been thinking about this for a while and only just hit me tonight to post about it. It’s funny too, because I’ve already done a post about family and what it means to me, but not friends. Not really, anyway. You would think that would be the logical next step, but we all know, or if you don’t know… if you stick around you’ll soon find out, I’m not always the person to take the most logical next step. It keeps things interesting. I tend to get very sidetracked, and for that I do apologize.

I was once someone who could just not go a day without being with my friends. I had a humongous group of people that I called my close friends, and sure, that is what we were. Then I had several people who were so close that I didn’t have to call before stopping by, their house was my house, I had a drawer in at least one of these houses for when I needed a place to crash, and this is something that happened on a regular basis. I was away and with friends more than I was at home and with family.

One of my friends, my very very best friend at the time, and I had this routine of talking on the phone as much as possible, going everywhere together… no literally, he would come to my house and pick me up and we’d go everywhere together. Luckily we only lived a few miles apart. Then we also had this system of putting notes in each others mailboxes or under the windshield wiper of our cars. We went to different schools so it made it a little harder to just pass notes. Yeah, so what if we were big ole goobs. It was nice at the time. Whatever.

My point to all this reminiscing is that I find it funny how all that seems to just disappear as we get older. Now, I know that it’s not the case for some, but it certainly has been for me. At least until recently. I have been getting together with some friends on a semi-regular basis and I’ve been loving every second of it. I know that with being an adult comes responsibility and those responsibilities come first. It’s not like I can just put off my homework like I did before and go watch movies at a friends house. Or decide to stay there instead of going home to my husband and furbabies. Don’t get me wrong here, I love my hubbykins and my furbabies, there are just times when I wonder what ever happened to that side of me, the side that had to be surrounded by friends.

I fully understand that there are reasons behind the not being able to go and do all the time. Money, responsibility, work, etc. But what about the having people over.. or just meeting for lunch on a regular basis, or something.. anything. I think it’s sad how life can just take over and won’t allow for things like that to happen as often as we’d like or even as often as we need them too.

Maybe with a little more effort and a little more planning things will become easier for us. One of these days!

XoxoX
Jess

When I make big money…

How I’ve been feeling lately

I’m not going to go into all the reasons why I haven’t been able to post here for a while. I am gonna say, though, that I’ve missed it so freakin’ much.

Now that that’s out of the way…

Money.

Everyone has issues with it, right? Somehow that never helps when you feel you are drowning in debt. Just when you think you have things figured out a little bit, it hits you all over again. Tidal waves crashing down on you and washing you out to the debt sea. It’s not anything to mess with.

I like to say that I’m fairly decent at budgeting and keeping up with our bills. While he was deployed I even focused all of my energy on a plan that I came up with to get us totally out of debt, minus student loans. Well, the student loans on his part have been taken care of. Which is a great thing. Mine finally caught up with me. They are being handled as they should be, but I feel like I can’t stop obsessing over income and bills and what we spend our money on. I go through it on paper, with a calculator, in my head, scratch paper… everywhere I can think of because I can’t stop thinking about it. Budget, budget, budget!

I need to take some sort of financial planning class and I know there are some out there. I honestly don’t know why this is weighing so heavy on me this time. It was almost nothing to take care of his, a breeze even. But right now, it’s about all I can take.

Oh the dreams I have for our future for when I make the big money. Debt paid off is priority obviously. But that’s not a fun dream. A fun dream would be road trips galore, shopping till I literally am bursting at the closet(s), fix up my truck like I want it, get him a new vehicle, get us a boat… oh the fun times we will have.

A girl can dream, can’t she?

Until that day comes though, back to working these numbers I go.

Hope everyone has a great weekend and I’m hoping to have my blogging voice back at least a little bit after this. We shall see.

XoxoX
Jess

My First Carabox!

This journey was soooo much fun! I got to get to know two amazing women over the past month and then send a package, worth $15 or more, to one while the other sent one to me. So many amazing and talented bloggers participate in this and I see why! I can’t wait for next months theme! This month, the theme was ‘Regional’ and I had a blast shopping for and thinking of the perfect things to put in the box to send to Becca. You can check her out at her blog Beginning with Becca . Go to her, follow her, she’s addicted to Instagram and loves to write. She’s a really sweet girl and I hope that we can stay in touch even after this is all over.

I got my box from Kyetra in the mail the day before yesterday and I’m so so sorry it took me so long to post about it. I wanted to as soon as I got it because I was just THAT excited! Anyway, you can find her at Sweet Tea & Lollipops . Do the same for her, go to her, follow her and get to know her and her love of reading! It’s awesome reading about her life and the books that she posts about. She’s pretty coolio…. (the 90s called and they want their lingo back). 

Finally, I have to give a shout out to Kaitlyn at Wifessionals for the awesome idea and all that she does to organize the Carabox swap! Must give credit where credit is due, and she certainly deserves it.

On to the reveal!

My box was incredible. Have I said that already?

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She really put so much thought into this and as you see here, even sent me detailed note cards of what the contents of my box were and a postcard! I. Love. Postcards!

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This might have been my favorite part, if I absolutely had to choose. Because really, it was all great. But she even sent a little treat for my two furkids (the pups) and apologized to jasmine for not getting her anything. That was too adorable.

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Like I said, she really put thought into it. I got a coffee mug to fit perfectly into my quirky collection, some sugar scrub (made by her!), some local honey, soap, and tanning lotion.

I had so much fun unwrapping everything and was as excited as if it were Christmas morning.

Thank you again, Kyetra! I love it all so much!!

Ttfn y’all.
XoxoX
Jess

Niece Diva <3

fashionista in training

This little girl has stolen my heart (sorry I’m not sorry Tommy).  She means the world to me and always has, really. She, and her mom, have been living with us since October and while there has been some tough times, I don’t think I would have done it any other way.

sleeping beauties

My heart breaks into a million pieces when I think about them leaving in a few days. We really have gone as long as we can without talking or thinking about it very much because it’s just a very sad situation. She deserves the world and somehow, no matter how hard we all try, she’s just not getting it. Not at all putting any shame or blame on her mom. Her mom is fantastic and will do anything and everything she can to make sure her daughter has while she goes without. I just wish there was more that we could do to help her out, because as I said, that little girl deserves the world.

Fro-Yo goodness

From the time that I met her she’s always had a special place in my heart, as well as everyone else’s! She just has that affect on people. I’m not sure if it’s her now more fully developed southern charm or that white blonde hair she has. Whatever it is, she is capable of wrapping anyone around her finger, twice for good measure, which is something I definitely admire since, well, I’m a spoiled brat too. We spoiled brats just have to absolutely stick together. But since she’s been around more we have a totally different kind of bond. One that I hope will remain even after she leaves because I really can’t stand to think of it not being there. She is my niece diva and always will be, no matter what and I just hope she really fully understands how much I love her and how badly I’m going to miss her.

goofy times ❤

Rock Show will just never be the same and will forever bring on the water works every time I hear it now. Even yesterday when we went to town and it came on Spotify, the level of rocking out was so weak compared to before. Knowing how much she doesn’t want to go, even with as much as we talk it up. doesn’t help at all. And I know I’m supposed to be adult about this but this is really hard for me, Tommy and Tonya too! But she doesn’t deserve all this pain. I suppose all we can do is reassure her in how much we love her with all of our hearts and make sure she knows she will always have a place to call home, no matter where she is.

T-minus 3 days.

XoxoX
Jess

 

 

I’m walkin’ on sunshine

It seems as though things in my life aren’t allowing me to blog as much as I’d like to to be able to keep up with this challenge, but I am going to complete it, even if that means playing catch up here and there. I will finish!

Day 15 was to be a day in the life of… me. Well, (un)interestingly enough, my day changes… daily. I don’t have a normal routine with the schedule that I work, unfortunately. Keeps things interesting really. I think I can sum it up though so that it covers each kind of day well enough.

I wake up (AM or PM depending on what I worked/am working that day).
I take the furkids out if the hubsters hasn’t already.
I have coffee (lots or a little also depending).
I either watch TV or read on my kindle for a while.
I catch with “my public” as Tommy calls it, and I continue to do this all throughout the day as I’m a very social person.
I eat somewhere along the way.
I try to blog but it doesn’t always work out that way.
I also try to game a bit with someone, Tommy or the BFF(effinship).

These are all things that are semi-constant in my daily life, whether I have the day off or not. There is a bit of give and take in there somewhere, but that’s the case for everyone right?

Day 16 was to be something difficult about my ‘lot in life’ and how I’m working to overcome it. This one is easy and slaps me in the face every time something along the lines of this topic comes around. My something difficult is most definitely my self image and self esteem. I have THE worst image of myself in my head. Part of it, I finally realized, is because I don’t exactly have someone to compare myself to. Not in the bad way but as in there aren’t many women my height or build. I have no way of looking at another girl and comparing any features really because we are so different. I am so different. This is something that I have always, always struggled with and I think will continue to for the rest of my life. So how am I working to overcome it? I stop asking Tommy if I look like ‘that girl’ or ‘that girl over there’. I stop myself before I even get the question out. It doesn’t matter. I allow myself to like some of the features that I have on my body. My eyes, my hair, my awkward smile, my legs for miles… haha. I have good things about me and not just ‘pretty on the inside’ things. I know I’m a good person, I have a big and kind heart, but I want to feel like I have confidence in myself and the way I appear. That affects the way I carry myself and deal with others at work and just in general on a daily basis. To me, that’s important. It doesn’t have to be a magazine cover or a model kind of pretty. Pretty comes in all shapes and sizes and colors and is much more than looks. It’s the confidence and the attitude behind the looks. Take care of yourself and feel good about yourself and the pretty will shine through. (Is that something only ugly girls say?)

Day 17 was to be a favorite photo of myself and why.

i’m walkin’ on sunshine?

This photo represents so much to me. It was taken in a happy and sad time. This was when we lived in another city that I love and miss very much. It was also pretty much right before our lives would change forever. He deployed a few months after this picture was taken. Life was much more carefree and easy then, I think. Not that I am not happy with where we are now, but that of course there have been struggles. I just think that this picture of me represents who I still want to be inside. Plus, look at that straight SHORT hair! Not sure if I miss that though.

Aaaand I’m finally at today’s challenge. A story from my childhood, as descriptive as possible. Oh the things I could dig up but intentionally keep locked away. Let’s just overlook those for a moment and get toooo… oh! The story about how my best friend of our lifetime sat on me outside her front yard and wouldn’t let me go home, even though I really wanted to, because she wasn’t done playing. We were about, oh I don’t know, 7 and 5 at the time? I was much more of a chunk than she was, and I was taller than her. This little bean pole of a girl basically sitting on my back and holding me down because she didn’t want me to go home. Parents and grandparents both came running out to see what all the commotion was about, but instead of helping me what do you think they did? Took pictures. OF COURSE they took pictures. There is proof that this happened and to this day it is still one of our parents’ favorite stories to tell anyone and everyone they can.

I am so excited to finally be caught up! I know I’ll be able to do tomorrow’s challenge which is 5 of my favorite blogs and what I love about them. This one will be fun to do for sure! I only have two hours left of work before I get to rush home and change and head out of town for some family things that I’m very excited and nervous about! So I will wish you all a very good Saturday morning as I go begin my closing duties!

XoxoX
Jess

What makes me happy?

Yesterday’s challenge was to list ten things that make me happy. First off, I want to say that I would obviously include family, friends, and fun. I am one lucky girl to have these things and they be a good force in my life. I want to reach to other maybe not so obvious things, but not without recognition of those very important things that do make me oh so very happy.

1. A clean and organized home. I may not be the best at getting things started, and honestly with us knowing that we will be moving soon, there are very few projects that I want to get started other than getting rid of almost everything so that we have less to move. But the house… it will be SO ORGANIZED.

2. Road Trips. Oh my, road trips.. spontaneous, planned, last minute, whatever the case may be, I love them! The possibilities are endless when I set out on the road and just decide to drive. Who knows where, and honestly, I don’t care. There are times where I just need to go. So, I go.

3. Spring/Summer really seems to boost my mood. I’m not sure if I would call it seasonal depression or not, but if that’s not it, I don’t know what to call it. I just know that during the colder months, I have more difficulty staying upbeat and focusing on the positive things. Not that I let it get me down all that much, but it just takes more work to stay focused and positive. But that comes with a little help from my friends and family. Those that understand and stick by me while I go through it really helps.

4. Nail Polish. I know this seems small and maybe not very important, but the color of my nails can sometimes match what mood I’m in, and that makes me happy.

5. The beach. This is totally separate from spring/summer because I love the beach any time of the year. Everything about it calls to me.

6. A fresh haircut. I love mixing it up a little and trying new styles, nothing too drastic though I’d love to try a bit of off the wall color at some point. A new style and color done by my amazing stylist and friend always makes me happy that I got it done and happy that I got to see her. Win win.

7. My truck. This ties into road trips, spring/summer, and several other things that make me happy. I love just getting in it and driving, blasting music loudly and singing at the top of my lungs without a care in the world. But this truck is something that took a lot of planning and adult type things before we got it. It was our first major purchase and it’s my baby! My Big Red.

8. To be quite honest, the internet. I have a slight addiction to it, while it’s gotten better, it’s still there. I love games and social networking and all sorts of interweb goodies. Blogging has just recently been added to one of my top favorites as well as keeping up with everyone else’s blog. Not only do I have everything on my computer, It’s all right at my fingertips on my phone and kindle. Yep, such an internet junkie.

9. Harry Potter and other obsessions. Mostly Harry Potter though.

10. Last but not at all the least, MUSIC. I have no idea if I didn’t have music to get me through each and every day, each and every feeling and each and every happy and sad moment in my life. It’s therapy for me in a way that actual therapy doesn’t work. Lucky for me, I have a great friend who is ALL ABOUT the music and he puts together mixes and posts them for free download on his website. He actually just put a new one up the other day that is incredible. I like to think of it as his way of blogging. He speaks through music and I find it fascinating. But then of course that could just be me reading too much into things like I sometimes  often times do. Shameless plug of my very dear friend and his amazing tunes.

So there you have it. Ten of the things that make me happy. I’d like to continue with this list one day, make it to twenty, and then thirty, and so on. I think we should always try to think of things that make us happy and what we are thankful for more often than we do. Helps keep a positive spin on a crazy life in a scary but beautiful world.

XoxoX
Jess

Sorry. I am so, so sorry.

 

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Today I am to issue a public apology. This is something I think I’ve been needing to get off my chest for quite some time and today gives me enough reason to go on and get it over with.

I have a slight anger problem. Just a bit of a temper that kinda comes out around stupid people. Where do we all know stupid people tend to be on a regular basis?? The road. Road rage can consume me like no other when I am surrounded by idiots driving. For that, I am sorry… I am so, so sorry.

I think I should start my own Driving School. I think that would eliminate so much of the problem for me. And for those of you that are thinking that I text and drive too much, I have taken care of that problem too so don’t even start.

Enjoy your little Tennant eye-candy today, I know I will!

XoxoX
Jess

Monday, let’s keep it lighthearted

The challenge for yesterday for Blog Every Day in May was ‘what do you miss?’ I missed it because I worked from midnight Saturday night till 8:30 Sunday morning then picked up my brother and we did Mothers Day things all day yesterday. It was a really good day for us all I think! Cooking out by the river with the family and the furkids. Good day all around! But on to playing catch-up again.


I could really make this post deep and talk about people, loved ones, or lost pets I’ll always miss. I do miss those and they are totally worthy to be in this post, however, I kinda just want to talk about the carefree years for a minute. Can we do that? Just travel back to the teenage and young adult years with me for a moment.

What the crap were we thinking?! I had a solid job and didn’t save a dime. I didn’t have any responsibilities other than school, work, and whatever sports I was playing at the time and I couldn’t even manage to manage my money any better than I did? Shame, for shame! (as my lovely niece diva would say).

So what do I really miss besides the possible money saved during that time? I miss the fact that I was always surrounded by friends, I miss the fact that we didn’t have hardly any responsibilities because being an adult with all the worry of bills and stress of life can really tire a girl out. I miss being able to be as spontaneous without feeling guilty.

If I could go back and slap myself, I would. I was a carefree idiot! But I had fun. Those memories and trials that I thought would really be the end of my little world are things I wouldn’t trade for the world.

And I leave you with the always entertaining Jenna Marbles video about hating being a grown up. Seems appropriate for a post like this. Enjoy!

XoxoX
Jess

We should be friends.

Good morning blog’verse! Rise and shine! Shake off those hangovers if you have one, have a cup of coffee and… oh who am I kidding, sleep well you lucky ducks, you.

Today’s theme for the Blog Every Day in May challenge is to sell yourself in 10…ten…TEN words or less. I can be an extremely wordy (dirty) person so this is going to be a definite challenge for me. The only thing is that I’m not exactly sure of is who am I selling myself to? The Devil? The blog’verse? Friends? Family? Guests? Who? I’m gonna pick a random person in my head and I’m going to attempt to win them over with my charm in ten words or less.

I love coffee and Harry Potter…
…we should be friends.

Nailed it! 

On the flip side of this, I think it’d be so much fun to see others try to sell me with the same restrictions. I may just bug everyone I know about it until they do. But of course, by that time when they finally give in and decide to play along, they may not be very fond of the product they are selling anymore. Lesson 38 in basic business kiddos, don’t let the product sway your salesmanship! Sell, sell, sell!

XoxoX
Jess



Arkansas or Arkansaw

Naturally I decide to start something once it’s already up and going. Seriously, I’m like this with everything from fashion and style to TV shows, movies and even lingo. I always am one of the last to arrive to the party, thus missing all the excitement and the newness of it, but that’s okay with me. So! With that said, I’d like to share with you a very fun blog I stumbled upon through several other bloggers that I follow. She’s got a great blog and some awesome tips for blogging, so look at those! She’s come up with this cool idea for writing prompts for May, called Blog Every Day In May! I thought that I’d give it a shot and see how far I get with this! So instead of the Thought Provoking posts, I think I’m gonna try to focus on this as well as other just random posts that pop in my head. It’s not like I have things to show sponsor wise or any giveaways to do! This place really is just a place for me to ramble on and on about not much of anything to this make believe audience that I occasionally ask questions to. That’s normal right? See what I did there?

Anywho, the prompt for today is most embarrassing moment(s)… yep. What a perfect one to start on! Nothing warm and fuzzy or easy to write about, but my most embarrassing moment(s). Lucky me, lucky me since I don’t really get all that embarrassed. I guess if I absolutely must talk about something, I’ll talk about this. This ridiculous moment has stuck with me for my entire life. From the time that it happened in 3rd grade, I believe, until now this happening in my life that the other people probably don’t even remember stuck by me and ridiculed me for ages. Gah, I hate even talking about it because it’s so silly and small it really doesn’t count as an embarrassment in and of itself, rather, the embarrassing part is the fact that I’ve held on to it for this long.

When I was in 3rd grade and we were learning the names of the states and all the information about them, I guess that’s what we were learning because to be honest, this moment has scarred me for life and it’s the only thing I can remember about that day. I was called on, and I mispronounced one of the states. Instead of saying Arkansas like you are supposed to, and any upstanding 3rd grader would know obviously, I said it like it’s spelled. (Ar-kan-sas instead of Ar-kan-saw). It wasn’t the teacher who made me feel bad for it, thankfully, I had enough of that in 1st grade… or so I hear from my mom and sister. But, it was another student in the class, a friend and that so-called “friend” laughed and pointed fingers and made fun of me till I cried. I was made to cry over a mispronunciation. Oops? I have no idea why that, of all things, has stayed with me all these years. Strange how the mind works, isn’t it?

*kicks*

So, of course now that I’ve opened up that part of my mind where the embarrassing things are, they come flooding out. Another was when a friend told a guy friend I had a crush on him, and this was a good guy friend. He didn’t feel the same way so I then proceeded to write his name all over my notebook with big X’s through it or ‘i hate ____’ instead of ‘i love ____’. He was one of those guy friends who should have really been more as close as we were, but we weren’t because I was ‘friend-zoned’. Yes guys, it happens to girls too and it sucks just as much, if not more! You see, I was always the tomboy, ‘one of the guys’ kinda girls. I could get cute and go shopping with my girl friends if I wanted, but I would almost always much rather stay home and play street basketball with another one of my lifelong crushes who had no idea, or go to the deer camp with my father figure, play baseball, go ride 4-wheelers, or whatever. Anything at all that guys would do, I could do it too, or if I couldn’t then I would just learn and make sure I could do it better.

You would think that I would have learned my lesson, but I really don’t think I ever did. You’d really think that I would be like, queen of no shame because of all the guy friends I had/have. Guys are pigs.

I do suppose this can be a liberating post. I’m no longer ashamed of my saying Arkansas wrong in the 3rd grade, it only took 20 years!

Thank goodness I don’t use names too though. No naming and/or shaming here! But THAT would be embarrassing. Yikes.

XoxoX
Jess

PS – I know I posted the catch up one first, but I actually wrote this one before the other. I just HAD to keep them in numerical order.