Featured Friday 003

This week has been so hectic catching up with family after vacation and being more willing to come in to work early since I did get 4 days off last week. Also, it has felt very much like my body is here but my mind is still playing catch up with the rest of me. It is still on vacation and is being pretty darn stubborn. I have decided to do a post featuring something, not someone but something, that has helped make me who I am today.
Harry Potter.

The books, the movies, the fan base, everything about it really is incredible. Now, I know it seems silly to do a full post about a fictional story and say that it has affected me as a person and especially at my age, but it was my first book series that I read all the way through and had absolutely no trouble finishing. That alone speaks volumes to me and to anyone that knows me. Also to anyone that knows me, they know that I am an uber Harry Potter geek. I have books besides the actual story books, the movies, a wand, countless photos saved to my computer and I’m working on getting a set of golden snitch jewelry. There have been more things that I can relate to in that story than in most things in the real world. Obviously I can’t relate to the wizardry because, well, it’s not real. But what I can relate to are the inspiring and uplifting stories of the relationships there, the friendships, the courage and lack there of of the Gryffindors, the book smarts of the Ravenclaws, the all around goodness of the Hufflepuffs and the sneaky and manipulative nature of the Slytherins. There were characters I loved and characters I loved to hate. There were even characters that I hated to love and especially those I just simply hated because there was just no redemption in what they did no matter how much pink they wore or how much they loved kitties.

The whole aspect of that story has definitely changed me as a person, but in good ways. It introduced me to what real fandom is, geeky fandom anyway. It’s a bit like having a huge family..knowing you are one of many that loves something that much and all for different reasons. To be part of that generation, even if I’m on the older end of it, is something wonderful. When watching the premiere for the final movie and all those kids that played the main characters took to the carpet, the world watched them grow up and grow in to these roles. Not only did they become the character, the character sort of became them. Weird little quirks that Daniel Radcliffe had, now Harry Potter had. Same goes for the others. Then there are those who played in the movies who were already superfans of the story. Luna Lovegood. Alan Rickman. These are iconic people who played iconic roles that will never be forgotten. Could it be because of their passion for the story?
Most definitely.

So to say that this all has made me a better person, changed me and taught me things, opened my eyes to a whole new world (cue music) does seem entirely ridiculous, but then again I like entirely ridiculous things. I will forever be thankful for those books, that world that Rowling created, and the awesome movies that came from them. My children will know of that world and hopefully it will continue to be passed down through the generations.

“Whether you come back by page or by the big screen, Hogwarts will always be there to welcome you home.”
– J.K. Rowling


As Thursday comes to a close…

I, of course, leave you with a thought-provoking post! Is pampering really good for the soul? Does it actually boost our self esteem or make us more confident? For right now, and without much research, I’m going to say absolutely it does! I just got back from one of the best vacations I have ever been on and I don’t think it could have started out any better. I worked the midnight till 8 AM shift, which technically I didn’t get off till like 9:30 because the next person didn’t come in and someone else had to cover. I had an appointment set up with my amazing cosmetologist friend to have a birthday mani/pedi from my Mama. Oh. My. Word. That was so super relaxing and refreshing and that was just for my hands and feet! About a month before that I had my hair cut and a massage that I got for Valentine’s Day from the hubby. I have been allowing myself, maybe a little too much, to buy new clothes and shoes and accessories…cough.scarves.cough… My attitude and mood has been through the roof lately. I have had a shit storm of troubles blasted my way but we have handled them the best way we know how and kept our heads up through it all. I still think it has something to do with the weather warming up.

I have even decided to start making my own sugar scrubs, which I’m excited about. I have the recipe that they use at The Body Shop, which is where my friend works. She wasn’t really supposed to give it to me, but ya know… we’re tight like that. I think a small project at home will be good for me. But I am known for taking on too much too fast. I already am wanting to make bracelets similar to the one I got in New Orleans because it seems fairly easy to do but still lets me be creative and artsy fartsy.

So, a little splurging and pampering of yourself every so often is not a bad thing. You can afford it, you can make things work and ends will still meet in the end. Take that small vacation, buy that cute outfit or pair of shoes or all of the above even! Learning to love life and live it has been a difficult thing for me. It’s not all about balancing and budgeting and saving. Granted, those are all very important things that still need to be done, but as long as you’re smart about it, a splurge every so often will be just fine. Trust me, I did it again today. I bought another plant for outside on our balcony. I’m really taking a liking to sitting outside with my flowers and reading, writing and drinking coffee. Basically I’m waiting till it’s time for me to be lakeside or poolside doing these things. That will really send my mood sky high. Everyone will be singing “she’s so hiiiiiigh high above me”.


P.S. I will be posting so many more things in the coming days. I have so much to get out of my head and down here… just so little time to do it!

It’s time for another round of Featured Friday!

I’ve been thinking long and hard who, what, or where I wanted to feature this Friday. I have had several good ones come to mind but none of them really felt right. It was a person last week so, in my mind it made complete sense to make it a pattern, because, you know… I like patterns. Feature a person, place, and then thing and start again. But, I really want to feature another person because it’s a special time this week and I think by doing this, it’s like she’s here with us. She has been on my mind a good bit more than usual lately. I’m pretty sure it has been because of the posts made in her group on facebook because of sibling day the other day and because a mutual friend and I share the same birthday, so she posted in there about how much she wishes that she could be here to celebrate her turning 21. Anyway, regardless of the reason she’s on my mind, she’s there and so this Featured Friday is going to be about her.

Olivia, or better known as Libby, was taken from us much too soon. It is something that has brought heartache to many that knew her and loved her and yet, how someone so small… like, literally small, not small in the figurative ‘she’s not significant’ way…. could make such a lasting impact on so many lives is beyond me. She has given me purpose to point my life in the right direction, to keep fighting for living and loving life, and to enjoy getting older simply because it is a privilege that was sadly denied to her. So, we keep living. We keep pushing forward and seek out ways to enjoy every aspect of life and do it with a smile on our faces because that’s what she would do. And man, such a big and contagious smile she had.

So, since it is so close to my birthday and it would have been nice to celebrate it somehow with her still here but she isn’t, I think featuring her today was the perfect thing to do. I just have to keep reminding myself that I may not look at things the same as I did when she was alive, but that doesn’t mean that I’m torn to pieces over her death. Not anymore. I appreciate more of what life has to offer and I will continue to keep that focus for as long as I can. She is just as inspiring now as she was then, and that says an awful lot about the kind of person she was, and the kind of person she could have become. She was taken from us so young, but man did she make one hell of an impact while she was here. It takes most their entire lives to make such an impact while some never accomplish it. She was a gift. And how appropriate. It is my birthday tomorrow.

Thought Provoking Thursday is back!

yep, that’s me this morning.

I have very little thought going on inside this sleepy little head of mine at the moment, but I do believe that I can come up with something to post about today that is, indeed, thought provoking. Let’s see, hmmm. Oh, I know! Falling asleep at work. Do you do it? Do you think it’s okay to sleep on the clock and be paid for that little cat nap, hoping no one notices or do you maybe work so hard in a labor type job that you need to have a bit of a rest to make it through that strenuous 12+ hour shift? Whatever the case may be, how do you justify sleeping on the clock. Oh, but wait! Let’s take it a bit further shall we? How do you justify not doing work while on the clock? Me? Well, I work in the hotel industry, front desk specifically, where there is a lot of down time. A. Lot. There is only so much lobby floor I can sweep, or counter space I can wipe down, or laundry to fold, etc. etc. No matter how many tedious tasks you put in front of me during this job, I will get them done and I will still have plenty of down time leftover. That is just part of the job unfortunately. Another thing that is unfortunate is how easy it is becoming for me to nod off on the midnight – eight AM shift. If I am not constantly pouring coffee down my throat then I will more than likely start to fall asleep. I did last week, standing up too! I also fell asleep while messing with a new app on my phone, editing the name of something in there and woke up to a fully typed out, grammatically correct sentence. I was replying to someone in my head but my fingers typed it out on my phone for me while sitting in the chair. Yeah, yeah, I know. I’m getting old(er). These are some examples that I may not really be able to help though. They are moving the cameras around at work so that the spaces that we do have that are a bit more private will now be on camera too. I”m not sure how I feel about that because, well, I don’t want to be on camera all the time. I don’t think it’s right for us to not have a little bit of privacy.

So, do you think that cameras will help the matters of falling asleep on the job or perhaps just doing things that aren’t work related?

See, I just did it again. I hate that feeling too. When you start to nod off and you get this weird shocking feeling over your body. I’m not sure exactly how to explain it, almost like being jolted awake. I can’t stand it. That must mean it’s time for me to go fix up my 5th massive cup of coffee to try to make it this last hour and 15 minutes. Sheesh, it’s such a drag!

On a more positive note, I was just complimented on my hair again this morning. It’s a hot mess to me, but apparently the hot mess look works for me! Or, it could be this lady just is friendly with me because I’m friendly with her. It’s nice to be complimented on things. I try to offer up nice remarks when talking with someone, especially about things they obviously put effort into. Just saying someone is cute or pretty doesn’t always cover the effort they put in to look that way. Choice of outfit, accessories, makeup style and so on… these are all things I try to comment on because to me, they took effort, well, to an extent I guess. There are those days when you can literally crawl out of bed last minute and not have any idea what you are throwing on and do your makeup in the car on the way to work or school and get more compliments then than any other day. I guess that would be  pretty ironic. There goes that butterfly again. So anyway. Compliments. Give them often, receive them with a thankful heart and a grateful attitude, and make someone’s day.

#runforboston and other work related things

It has been an emotional roller coaster for many of us over the past few days. I have seen so much sadness in the hearts of others. But, then on the amazing flip-side, there has been support, hope, love, and to me, a sense of reaching out in ways unheard of. This run for Boston thing has been completely incredible to me. People all over the place are lacing up and running for Boston, thus encouraging us to get up, get out, and get moving to show our support and a united front against the person or persons who did this attack. It is a little boost for my faith in humanity to see all these people doing something in honor of those killed and wounded.

Now, if only this could happen more often. Why is it that it takes something so tragic to rattle us? Then there’s that other hand again. What about those overseas fighting and being killed on a daily basis? Have we as a society just accepted this and moved on, causing it to take something like this random act of violence to shake us up? I think it just seems that way. There are more positive movements and projects out there to help people in need than are recognized. It’s a shame that it’s mostly bad publicity that gets out easily while it takes a bit more digging to get to the good stuff.

So anyway, here’s a pic from our run for Boston yesterday. It was a gorgeous day and the furbabies loved being out at the park.

No, I’m not the one with the paws but I was panting nearly just as bad at the end!

On another note, let’s talk work things. Work! Boy, this place has been a blessing in and of itself. Granted, it’s in disguise most of the time, but still a blessing regardless. But there is something new happening, or at least beginning to happen, that I’m not totally certain I’m sold on. What’s happening is, basically our daily rate per room is down. On top of that we are filling less rooms than normal and no one is exactly sure why. I have a few ideas as to why just like the rest of the staff does, but we do tend to keep those to ourselves. Anyway, they are wanting someone to go around and be the ‘face’ of the hotel. Get out there and talk to businesses about when they have to bring in someone from the outside for anything work related, to offer them a deal they can’t refuse on our rooms and rates. I’ve suggested this several times in many different ways. Like, they got word that there will be many softball tournaments in town this year and we are approximately a mile from the ball fields they will be playing on. Why would we not be the hotel of choice to at least host or somehow sponsor these events? Why do we not get our name out there more than we have been?

I guess it’s because of my questions and my talking with them and possibly my so called ambition, they want me to do it. Me! Shouldn’t I have some classes or training in this or something? But, once the new girl is trained they want me to go around and gather information and be out of the hotel, but working and still being paid, talking to people about staying here. And why shouldn’t they? We do have full size kitchens, making us the best place for any sort of extended stay! See, making an impact here already and I’m only a few months in this job! I’ve already been told that I have what it takes to manage a hotel, but of course that was before I was called stupid. I still think he really didn’t mean anything by it, it was harmless on his part and so it will be on mine too. Unless, of course, it happens again.

I’m excited! I don’t want to tell anyone specifically or talk to anyone about it directly tho, so for those of you who read this, don’t ask me about it yet! I don’t want to jinx it. I haven’t even told the hubsters yet, but that don’t talk to me about it that I previously stated goes for him too. Let’s just wait and see how it plays out. But at least, now you know… that is… if you read this.

That’s about all I got for now.


Boston on my mind

This is a post simply because of all the horror that is happening in Boston right now. I have friends there, who have already checked in with families and are all fine..thank goodness. I just read that there are several hundred Mississippians there participating in the marathon today, prayers are with them and everyone else involved.

Keep everyone there in your thoughts and prayers tonight and always, always hold your loved ones closer and longer. It shouldn’t take something this tragic to make us appreciate the smaller things in life nor should it take something this extreme to make us wake up and realize just how short life really can be.


Finally Friday!

TGIF! Ammirite? Such a good day, that Friday is. End of the work week for most of the lovely folks, but unfortunately, some of us aren’t so lucky. I have to be at work at midnight tonight and tomorrow night. Boo. But, how awesome is it that I have a job that I am comfortable at and can get a steady paycheck from? In today’s economy, that says quite a lot! But pish-posh with all these silly things, on to the fun Friday stuff!

I am so excited about today, not just that it’s Friday in general but that I thought to try a Featured Friday. What this means is that each Friday, at least till I see if it works or not or how long it will last because I do tend to get bored of things fairly quickly, I will post about one person, place or thing that I think is important enough for me to feature it here. Well then, let’s get started!

This Friday my featured PERSON is going to be the onliest one and the onliest only Tommy! It will only make sense as to why he is featured first here. I have mentioned him in previous posts but referred to him only as my supportive man or the hubsters but not by his name yet. Well, now you know his name and maybe it makes a little sense as to why I choose him to be first in my Featured Friday list! Side note real quick though, I don’t think future posts will be in any sort of order, I will more than likely become very random with this.

Without further ado, my husband Tommy!

Me and my honey + his hair (because it needs to have its own category)

He is the love of my life, the strongest, funniest, strangest, craziest man I know. Then on the flip side he’s got the sweetest heart, he’s an animal lover like me, and he loves kids. Doesn’t every woman look for that in a man? Even if some of us are deathly afraid of having children, we still look for it! He’s out of the military now, but he’s a soldier at heart, always and forever. That isn’t something that just leaves you once the contract is up, just like I know the possibility of being an Army Wife is still always there.

See! Just home from Iraq and loving on the furbabies ❤

I really lucked out when I got to marry this guy. He truly is an incredible man and husband. I couldn’t be any happier now than I was when we first got together nearly 8 years ago, and that’s saying a lot since I am certain I have tested every single nerve he has, probably destroyed a few of them actually. He has helped me through some of my darkest days and still chooses to stay with me, and believe me, they got pretty dark. We got through it though. Together.

Maybe one of these days I’ll post on how we met since now there is a face to go with the name when I talk about him. It’s actually a pretty neat story that I’d like to share in my own words. One day. But till next time, I’ll leave you with my current ringtone for him. D’aww aren’t we sweet? 😉





Choose your words wisely & the start of Thought-Provoking Thursdays!

I have officially declared Thursdays to be ‘Thought-Provoking Thursdays’ and that certainly is what today has been for me. It has been one helluva mental struggle and emotional roller coaster kind of day. I do not wish to have a repeat of this sort of thought-provokingness in Thursdays to come and hate this is how it is starting out but watch me put a fantastic spin on it!

Today started out just fine, got up on time, no…wait, I actually got up a few minutes early! My hair has been kick-ass today despite the crappy weather which is usually a sign of a good day for me. Good hair is one in the same with a good day, right? Clearly, I was wrong. I get to work and the bosslady and the bossman are just riding my case hard all day long. Granted, I clock in 13 minutes late because I had to take my Niece to school due to her missing the bus, which rainy weather sometimes causes. But! I called in and let them know. I don’t think that bosslady should have been that upset with me since it isn’t like I’m the only one that’s ever late. In fact, this was my second time being late and the first time was because my truck broke down. Others are late regularly.

As much as that bothered me, I decided to just let it go and enjoy the day. I was on the day shift and happy to be there. Time goes by much quicker and there are actually people there to talk to! The midnight-8AM shift is quite the opposite. It’s very quiet, very dead, very boring and after today it just might be my favorite shift again.

But then it gets worse. Dun dun dunnnnnn. Caution! Ragey Jess ahead! Not really, I just went in the bathroom and cried, but they were tears of rage damnit! You see, I have this trigger word. If it is directed at me in any way, shape or form, I lose my cool, and depending on what day it is, I could have very cool left! Bossman was involved in this one though. He may have meant no harm whatsoever when he said it, actually, I’m sure that’s exactly what happened. You see, what had happened was… I burned my arm on the dryer. I do realize how ditzy this is or can be. The thing is though, there was a pot holder stuck on the very back of this massively ginormous machine that we call a dryer. I basically had to crawl in there to get it out and my arm barely grazed the bar/rod/thing that is on the drum of the machine. Well, a load had just finished drying so it was rather hot, hot enough for it to burn my arm quite a bit. It’s still red and hurting! Anyway, I get nearly all the laundry for the day done and I’m doing another small job that bossman asked me to do and still listening to him explain it. Another lady that I work with pokes her head around the corner and I show her what happened. She asked what I did and I tell her simply “I burned myself on the dryer!” Not thinking that I would be attacked in a mean way but I was. Bossman then says something like “well, didn’t your mother teach you not to be so stupid?” Ding ding ding, the gloves are off! But there goes Jess running to the bathroom! What could I do though? He’s my boss! It’s not like I could chew him out for what he said! All I was able to get out was “hey now!” and then there goes all the blood to my face followed by all the tears down my cheeks. Ugh. Embarrassing and such a shame! It’s a shame that this one little word that probably didn’t mean hardly anything other than the same thing calling it a ditzy move or asking if I’m a blonde or anything like that. The fact of the matter was and is, though, that he used the word stupid and that’s not okay with me. That’s when it turns into blind rage and I literally had to remove myself from the scene of the crime to keep anything else from happening… like losing my job! That would have made my day much, much worse.

So, how is this all a thought-provoking post? What are some other ‘trigger words’ for others? I glanced around some forums and saw that stupid actually isn’t that common. More of them had to do with appearances, race, religion, or how social or antisocial you are. A few of them that I saw are: antisocial, shy, quiet, awkward, loser, and other various words having to do with race, religion, weight, etc. There are reasons behind ‘stupid’ being my trigger word that I won’t get into those in this post because I do want to end this on a good note. How do you help to control the beast though? I mean, once it’s unleashed, the damage is done! Or, just do like me and run to the bathroom for half an hour. Tame the beast within.

Oh how I wanted to tell bossman this 😉


Play the tape all the way through

Happy Monday everyone! Late to the Monday party, I know but the sentiment is still the same! My day has been full of revelations and coffee! Surprised? You shouldn’t be. My day started off like any other day really; woke up, watched a couple episodes of Dr. Who, went outside and sat in my new awesome comfy outside chair and drank my coffee and doodled in my new purse-sized notebook I got last night specifically for doodling and jotting down ideas for writing so I wouldn’t get so overwhelmed! But the hubsters had an awesome idea to put a makeshift barrier so we could let the furkids, minus the jazzcat, out with us. They loved it! They smelled the flowers, the lovely potted daisies that the hubsters got for me for Easter, boy furkid almost got attacked by a humming bird, and girl furkid got attention like she wanted and enjoyed people watching. We sat out there listening to Matchbox Twenty Radio on Pandora for nearly 2 hours, he was playing games and I was watching the furkids and just enjoying being outside. It was much to pretty of a day to be cooped up inside the whole time.

So, as I was drinking my coffee, some of the best ideas were coming to me. But then, a song I haven’t heard in forever comes on the radio. I post part of a lyric to it as my status on Facebook and several people like it. But then, my cousin comes in with the rest of the lyric which is exactly what I wanted someone to do since the part that I posted did seem pretty depressing. But she comes through for me, that amazing cousin of mine. Not only that though, she then posts another comment with words of encouragement as if she thinks I’m going through something difficult. I’m not. I’m in one of the best moods I think I’ve been in in a very long time. I appreciate the heartfelt words from her, but I did not mean to give off that vibe because it certainly does not match my mood.

Okay, so now I’m sure you’re all wondering what the song was and what the lyrics that we posted were. The song was Absolutely (Story of a Girl) by Nine Days. It’s an oldie but a goodie. Did I mention we were listening to Matchbox Twenty radio? I’m fairly certain they were all oldies but goodies. In fact I’m still listening to it, been listening all day and it’s been great for my soul. Anyway, the lyric I posted as my status was “This is the story of a girl who cried a river and drowned the whole world” which then my cousin posted “And while she looked so sad in photographs, I absolutely love her when she smiles.” Awwww, right? Yeah, we are cute cousins. But then, like I said, she posted another comment with encouraging words. Some of those words being “play that tape all the way through girlfriend…”, which of course stuck out to me. Instant light bulb. How many of us are stuck on the first part of the lyric in our lives? I know I was and will probably be again one of these days, but man, I’m gonna do like my cousin said. Play the whole song, don’t just get stuck on repeat on the first part.

You see, maybe that is what was going on with me and what is going on with so many people. We get so focused on the sad, the difficult, the negative… the “cried a river and drowned the whole world” part that we don’t even get to the positive, the awesome things ahead… the “I absolutely love her when she smiles” part.

Something else to think about, as we have all heard numerous times before I’m sure, is that we have the down times to make the good ones that much better, make us appreciate them that much more. Whatever the case may be, I don’t want to miss out on the best part of the song.


High School Reunion. Already?

Holy cow has it really been ten years already since I walked across that stage and got my diploma, deer in headlights kinda wide-eyed with endless possibilities of how my life would turn out. Ten years? Okay so now that that little freak out is out of the way, this post is being brought to you by the letter W for wherethecrapdidthetimego. Okay, okay in all seriousness.. I woke up to a group message on Facebook from several of my classmates. We are officially in the planning stages of our reunion! This excites me and terrifies me all at the same time. Plenty has changed for all of us since that day. Some I have seen here and there over the past ten years. Others, to be honest, I have not seen since that day in the City Auditorium. Sad, too, because I always think that we are closer than that – in any sort of friendship or relationship. Sure, we have kept up with each others’ lives to a certain extent thanks to social media sites like Facebook and of course Myspace, for back then. Yep, I am old enough to say that I am a Myspace boomer and even after high school that was the popular website for me and my classmates. This was due in large part to the fact that Facebook was still by invite only, I believe, and our school was not on the approved list of schools or something like that. I did eventually get on Facebook by saying I was a student at one of the larger, local public schools. Yep, just chased a butterfly there. I think I’m back now.

So, my high school reunion. So far there are a little over 20 people in the group conversation on Facebook and so many want to come! That is exciting! It really will be great to see everyone again. Will give me a chance to catch up with everyone and share life stories of the past several years. Duh, I know that this is what a reunion is for. What I also know reunions to be famous for are causing stress and I don’t want that to be the case with me. Sure, I am already mapping out a workout plan, but I was already doing that last night before I found out about the reunion. I just have a more definite timeline to work with now.

You see, I was an all around athlete and while I felt then that it didn’t show… I don’t think I could have been more blind. What I am going to try to make this teach me is that my worth is not measured by my size. I want to be healthy to be healthy, I don’t want this to become something that I panic over if I’m not a certain size by the time the reunion comes around. I want to focus all of my attention on sharing in something exciting and what should be a really good night, not let it get away from me and panic about it. So, that’s what I’m going to do.

My plan, you ask? I have been walking the dogs and/or running in the park semi regularly lately. I want to push that to a totally regular thing. I need to make my work schedule work this in and progress has already been made on that thanks in part to my supportive man. I have already made some wonderful diet adjustments and just need to weed out the junk that I tend to indulge on a little more often than I probably should. I have also been wanting to get a bicycle. Granted my town is full of these wonderful rolling hills, but there are some flat parts where I think I’d be able to get started in riding again. In short, my plan is just to get active and stay active. I love being active and I need to stop letting that get away from me so easily.

To wrap all this up, I do not want to leave the wrong impression for anyone. I am completely and totally excited for the upcoming reunion. I can’t wait to see some old friends that I have not seen in years and see some that I’ve seen more recently but still could use a good catch up! Ten years? Gosh! Still can’t believe it.

Senior year with the small group of us that had been together since 1st grade!