Friends

I’ve been thinking about this for a while and only just hit me tonight to post about it. It’s funny too, because I’ve already done a post about family and what it means to me, but not friends. Not really, anyway. You would think that would be the logical next step, but we all know, or if you don’t know… if you stick around you’ll soon find out, I’m not always the person to take the most logical next step. It keeps things interesting. I tend to get very sidetracked, and for that I do apologize.

I was once someone who could just not go a day without being with my friends. I had a humongous group of people that I called my close friends, and sure, that is what we were. Then I had several people who were so close that I didn’t have to call before stopping by, their house was my house, I had a drawer in at least one of these houses for when I needed a place to crash, and this is something that happened on a regular basis. I was away and with friends more than I was at home and with family.

One of my friends, my very very best friend at the time, and I had this routine of talking on the phone as much as possible, going everywhere together… no literally, he would come to my house and pick me up and we’d go everywhere together. Luckily we only lived a few miles apart. Then we also had this system of putting notes in each others mailboxes or under the windshield wiper of our cars. We went to different schools so it made it a little harder to just pass notes. Yeah, so what if we were big ole goobs. It was nice at the time. Whatever.

My point to all this reminiscing is that I find it funny how all that seems to just disappear as we get older. Now, I know that it’s not the case for some, but it certainly has been for me. At least until recently. I have been getting together with some friends on a semi-regular basis and I’ve been loving every second of it. I know that with being an adult comes responsibility and those responsibilities come first. It’s not like I can just put off my homework like I did before and go watch movies at a friends house. Or decide to stay there instead of going home to my husband and furbabies. Don’t get me wrong here, I love my hubbykins and my furbabies, there are just times when I wonder what ever happened to that side of me, the side that had to be surrounded by friends.

I fully understand that there are reasons behind the not being able to go and do all the time. Money, responsibility, work, etc. But what about the having people over.. or just meeting for lunch on a regular basis, or something.. anything. I think it’s sad how life can just take over and won’t allow for things like that to happen as often as we’d like or even as often as we need them too.

Maybe with a little more effort and a little more planning things will become easier for us. One of these days!

XoxoX
Jess

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When I make big money…

How I’ve been feeling lately

I’m not going to go into all the reasons why I haven’t been able to post here for a while. I am gonna say, though, that I’ve missed it so freakin’ much.

Now that that’s out of the way…

Money.

Everyone has issues with it, right? Somehow that never helps when you feel you are drowning in debt. Just when you think you have things figured out a little bit, it hits you all over again. Tidal waves crashing down on you and washing you out to the debt sea. It’s not anything to mess with.

I like to say that I’m fairly decent at budgeting and keeping up with our bills. While he was deployed I even focused all of my energy on a plan that I came up with to get us totally out of debt, minus student loans. Well, the student loans on his part have been taken care of. Which is a great thing. Mine finally caught up with me. They are being handled as they should be, but I feel like I can’t stop obsessing over income and bills and what we spend our money on. I go through it on paper, with a calculator, in my head, scratch paper… everywhere I can think of because I can’t stop thinking about it. Budget, budget, budget!

I need to take some sort of financial planning class and I know there are some out there. I honestly don’t know why this is weighing so heavy on me this time. It was almost nothing to take care of his, a breeze even. But right now, it’s about all I can take.

Oh the dreams I have for our future for when I make the big money. Debt paid off is priority obviously. But that’s not a fun dream. A fun dream would be road trips galore, shopping till I literally am bursting at the closet(s), fix up my truck like I want it, get him a new vehicle, get us a boat… oh the fun times we will have.

A girl can dream, can’t she?

Until that day comes though, back to working these numbers I go.

Hope everyone has a great weekend and I’m hoping to have my blogging voice back at least a little bit after this. We shall see.

XoxoX
Jess

My First Carabox!

This journey was soooo much fun! I got to get to know two amazing women over the past month and then send a package, worth $15 or more, to one while the other sent one to me. So many amazing and talented bloggers participate in this and I see why! I can’t wait for next months theme! This month, the theme was ‘Regional’ and I had a blast shopping for and thinking of the perfect things to put in the box to send to Becca. You can check her out at her blog Beginning with Becca . Go to her, follow her, she’s addicted to Instagram and loves to write. She’s a really sweet girl and I hope that we can stay in touch even after this is all over.

I got my box from Kyetra in the mail the day before yesterday and I’m so so sorry it took me so long to post about it. I wanted to as soon as I got it because I was just THAT excited! Anyway, you can find her at Sweet Tea & Lollipops . Do the same for her, go to her, follow her and get to know her and her love of reading! It’s awesome reading about her life and the books that she posts about. She’s pretty coolio…. (the 90s called and they want their lingo back). 

Finally, I have to give a shout out to Kaitlyn at Wifessionals for the awesome idea and all that she does to organize the Carabox swap! Must give credit where credit is due, and she certainly deserves it.

On to the reveal!

My box was incredible. Have I said that already?

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She really put so much thought into this and as you see here, even sent me detailed note cards of what the contents of my box were and a postcard! I. Love. Postcards!

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This might have been my favorite part, if I absolutely had to choose. Because really, it was all great. But she even sent a little treat for my two furkids (the pups) and apologized to jasmine for not getting her anything. That was too adorable.

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Like I said, she really put thought into it. I got a coffee mug to fit perfectly into my quirky collection, some sugar scrub (made by her!), some local honey, soap, and tanning lotion.

I had so much fun unwrapping everything and was as excited as if it were Christmas morning.

Thank you again, Kyetra! I love it all so much!!

Ttfn y’all.
XoxoX
Jess

Niece Diva <3

fashionista in training

This little girl has stolen my heart (sorry I’m not sorry Tommy).  She means the world to me and always has, really. She, and her mom, have been living with us since October and while there has been some tough times, I don’t think I would have done it any other way.

sleeping beauties

My heart breaks into a million pieces when I think about them leaving in a few days. We really have gone as long as we can without talking or thinking about it very much because it’s just a very sad situation. She deserves the world and somehow, no matter how hard we all try, she’s just not getting it. Not at all putting any shame or blame on her mom. Her mom is fantastic and will do anything and everything she can to make sure her daughter has while she goes without. I just wish there was more that we could do to help her out, because as I said, that little girl deserves the world.

Fro-Yo goodness

From the time that I met her she’s always had a special place in my heart, as well as everyone else’s! She just has that affect on people. I’m not sure if it’s her now more fully developed southern charm or that white blonde hair she has. Whatever it is, she is capable of wrapping anyone around her finger, twice for good measure, which is something I definitely admire since, well, I’m a spoiled brat too. We spoiled brats just have to absolutely stick together. But since she’s been around more we have a totally different kind of bond. One that I hope will remain even after she leaves because I really can’t stand to think of it not being there. She is my niece diva and always will be, no matter what and I just hope she really fully understands how much I love her and how badly I’m going to miss her.

goofy times ❤

Rock Show will just never be the same and will forever bring on the water works every time I hear it now. Even yesterday when we went to town and it came on Spotify, the level of rocking out was so weak compared to before. Knowing how much she doesn’t want to go, even with as much as we talk it up. doesn’t help at all. And I know I’m supposed to be adult about this but this is really hard for me, Tommy and Tonya too! But she doesn’t deserve all this pain. I suppose all we can do is reassure her in how much we love her with all of our hearts and make sure she knows she will always have a place to call home, no matter where she is.

T-minus 3 days.

XoxoX
Jess

 

 

I’m walkin’ on sunshine

It seems as though things in my life aren’t allowing me to blog as much as I’d like to to be able to keep up with this challenge, but I am going to complete it, even if that means playing catch up here and there. I will finish!

Day 15 was to be a day in the life of… me. Well, (un)interestingly enough, my day changes… daily. I don’t have a normal routine with the schedule that I work, unfortunately. Keeps things interesting really. I think I can sum it up though so that it covers each kind of day well enough.

I wake up (AM or PM depending on what I worked/am working that day).
I take the furkids out if the hubsters hasn’t already.
I have coffee (lots or a little also depending).
I either watch TV or read on my kindle for a while.
I catch with “my public” as Tommy calls it, and I continue to do this all throughout the day as I’m a very social person.
I eat somewhere along the way.
I try to blog but it doesn’t always work out that way.
I also try to game a bit with someone, Tommy or the BFF(effinship).

These are all things that are semi-constant in my daily life, whether I have the day off or not. There is a bit of give and take in there somewhere, but that’s the case for everyone right?

Day 16 was to be something difficult about my ‘lot in life’ and how I’m working to overcome it. This one is easy and slaps me in the face every time something along the lines of this topic comes around. My something difficult is most definitely my self image and self esteem. I have THE worst image of myself in my head. Part of it, I finally realized, is because I don’t exactly have someone to compare myself to. Not in the bad way but as in there aren’t many women my height or build. I have no way of looking at another girl and comparing any features really because we are so different. I am so different. This is something that I have always, always struggled with and I think will continue to for the rest of my life. So how am I working to overcome it? I stop asking Tommy if I look like ‘that girl’ or ‘that girl over there’. I stop myself before I even get the question out. It doesn’t matter. I allow myself to like some of the features that I have on my body. My eyes, my hair, my awkward smile, my legs for miles… haha. I have good things about me and not just ‘pretty on the inside’ things. I know I’m a good person, I have a big and kind heart, but I want to feel like I have confidence in myself and the way I appear. That affects the way I carry myself and deal with others at work and just in general on a daily basis. To me, that’s important. It doesn’t have to be a magazine cover or a model kind of pretty. Pretty comes in all shapes and sizes and colors and is much more than looks. It’s the confidence and the attitude behind the looks. Take care of yourself and feel good about yourself and the pretty will shine through. (Is that something only ugly girls say?)

Day 17 was to be a favorite photo of myself and why.

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This photo represents so much to me. It was taken in a happy and sad time. This was when we lived in another city that I love and miss very much. It was also pretty much right before our lives would change forever. He deployed a few months after this picture was taken. Life was much more carefree and easy then, I think. Not that I am not happy with where we are now, but that of course there have been struggles. I just think that this picture of me represents who I still want to be inside. Plus, look at that straight SHORT hair! Not sure if I miss that though.

Aaaand I’m finally at today’s challenge. A story from my childhood, as descriptive as possible. Oh the things I could dig up but intentionally keep locked away. Let’s just overlook those for a moment and get toooo… oh! The story about how my best friend of our lifetime sat on me outside her front yard and wouldn’t let me go home, even though I really wanted to, because she wasn’t done playing. We were about, oh I don’t know, 7 and 5 at the time? I was much more of a chunk than she was, and I was taller than her. This little bean pole of a girl basically sitting on my back and holding me down because she didn’t want me to go home. Parents and grandparents both came running out to see what all the commotion was about, but instead of helping me what do you think they did? Took pictures. OF COURSE they took pictures. There is proof that this happened and to this day it is still one of our parents’ favorite stories to tell anyone and everyone they can.

I am so excited to finally be caught up! I know I’ll be able to do tomorrow’s challenge which is 5 of my favorite blogs and what I love about them. This one will be fun to do for sure! I only have two hours left of work before I get to rush home and change and head out of town for some family things that I’m very excited and nervous about! So I will wish you all a very good Saturday morning as I go begin my closing duties!

XoxoX
Jess

What makes me happy?

Yesterday’s challenge was to list ten things that make me happy. First off, I want to say that I would obviously include family, friends, and fun. I am one lucky girl to have these things and they be a good force in my life. I want to reach to other maybe not so obvious things, but not without recognition of those very important things that do make me oh so very happy.

1. A clean and organized home. I may not be the best at getting things started, and honestly with us knowing that we will be moving soon, there are very few projects that I want to get started other than getting rid of almost everything so that we have less to move. But the house… it will be SO ORGANIZED.

2. Road Trips. Oh my, road trips.. spontaneous, planned, last minute, whatever the case may be, I love them! The possibilities are endless when I set out on the road and just decide to drive. Who knows where, and honestly, I don’t care. There are times where I just need to go. So, I go.

3. Spring/Summer really seems to boost my mood. I’m not sure if I would call it seasonal depression or not, but if that’s not it, I don’t know what to call it. I just know that during the colder months, I have more difficulty staying upbeat and focusing on the positive things. Not that I let it get me down all that much, but it just takes more work to stay focused and positive. But that comes with a little help from my friends and family. Those that understand and stick by me while I go through it really helps.

4. Nail Polish. I know this seems small and maybe not very important, but the color of my nails can sometimes match what mood I’m in, and that makes me happy.

5. The beach. This is totally separate from spring/summer because I love the beach any time of the year. Everything about it calls to me.

6. A fresh haircut. I love mixing it up a little and trying new styles, nothing too drastic though I’d love to try a bit of off the wall color at some point. A new style and color done by my amazing stylist and friend always makes me happy that I got it done and happy that I got to see her. Win win.

7. My truck. This ties into road trips, spring/summer, and several other things that make me happy. I love just getting in it and driving, blasting music loudly and singing at the top of my lungs without a care in the world. But this truck is something that took a lot of planning and adult type things before we got it. It was our first major purchase and it’s my baby! My Big Red.

8. To be quite honest, the internet. I have a slight addiction to it, while it’s gotten better, it’s still there. I love games and social networking and all sorts of interweb goodies. Blogging has just recently been added to one of my top favorites as well as keeping up with everyone else’s blog. Not only do I have everything on my computer, It’s all right at my fingertips on my phone and kindle. Yep, such an internet junkie.

9. Harry Potter and other obsessions. Mostly Harry Potter though.

10. Last but not at all the least, MUSIC. I have no idea if I didn’t have music to get me through each and every day, each and every feeling and each and every happy and sad moment in my life. It’s therapy for me in a way that actual therapy doesn’t work. Lucky for me, I have a great friend who is ALL ABOUT the music and he puts together mixes and posts them for free download on his website. He actually just put a new one up the other day that is incredible. I like to think of it as his way of blogging. He speaks through music and I find it fascinating. But then of course that could just be me reading too much into things like I sometimes  often times do. Shameless plug of my very dear friend and his amazing tunes.

So there you have it. Ten of the things that make me happy. I’d like to continue with this list one day, make it to twenty, and then thirty, and so on. I think we should always try to think of things that make us happy and what we are thankful for more often than we do. Helps keep a positive spin on a crazy life in a scary but beautiful world.

XoxoX
Jess

Sorry. I am so, so sorry.

 

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Today I am to issue a public apology. This is something I think I’ve been needing to get off my chest for quite some time and today gives me enough reason to go on and get it over with.

I have a slight anger problem. Just a bit of a temper that kinda comes out around stupid people. Where do we all know stupid people tend to be on a regular basis?? The road. Road rage can consume me like no other when I am surrounded by idiots driving. For that, I am sorry… I am so, so sorry.

I think I should start my own Driving School. I think that would eliminate so much of the problem for me. And for those of you that are thinking that I text and drive too much, I have taken care of that problem too so don’t even start.

Enjoy your little Tennant eye-candy today, I know I will!

XoxoX
Jess